A powerful moment to live; update

Smooth smoke from in and out the lungs
And a bitter taste on the tongue
What a powerful moment to live
After all you thought was
There’s nothing left to hope for
Except this moment
This moment of power
When you go spinning
Hanging from nails off the ceiling
It’s a crystal nightmare
That stops time from lapsing
It’s what gives you the confidence
To stand up to anyone
Until you bent forward on the floor
Dry heaving
Coughing up the blood
You bleed internally
Writhing in your spit
Until finally you wish
For something more
Something