bipoalr
A powerful moment to live
Smooth smoke in the lungs
Bitter taste on the tongue
A powerful moment to live
When all you thought was
There’s nothing in the world to live for
It’s all a crystal nightmare
When you’ve waisted all your money
For another go at it until you are spinning
Off hinged nails from the ceiling
And you’re coughing up your own lungs
And bleeding internally
Then you’re dry heaving on the floor
Writhing
Praying for something more
Something
untitled conscious
and does it even matter how many lives you ruin and does it matter you’re heartless and does it matter i’m apologizing for you and now i don’t see the real me because no one does not even myself at times so what does it matter really who i am i’m here before you see me standing touch me feel me hurt me cuz this is how it goes now i felt it haven’t you felt it i will keep on going because it’s all i can do now while i’m spinning in strobing circling dimensions all over inside this place spitting in my own face going round and round no i’m drinking some liquid tasting of something bitter sweet of corse yes that’s where i am so close to home but i’m so far out and away still send someone out here please why don’t you is there someone coming please hear me i’m out here calling and my temperature is rising under a sun setting underground emitting steam like quality sweat running down my neck hear me fasting its been a few weeks now dire desperate i’m back up off my knees now sipping on liquid seeping down my forehead what incredible luck see a siren a beacon see something zenith hear it the current lifting up the sound and no one is there i knew it i hear only my stomach growling needing wanting everything |<^
i lit the shit on fire
i lit the shit on fire i don’t like being here and by the way you deleted all my notes so what’s it gunna take to get it back in your head i’m un done un wanting your things you said lets be real stop being sick yeah i know yeah i can remember my pain so thick and in the way and what you said i ordered some medicine i ordered you wellness my one less person you are my little one less human i’m alienated i’m human i don’t cut and paste till i need it pasted on my skin don’t delete it let me be with it while i said it waiting till you knew already that my hearts on hold on fire you burn it how long should i wait how long till i hold on no more feelings but i remember though i forget things unable to remember feelings i don’t remember your name or anyone else’s and i suppose i’m alright i’m good well done i’m forgettable memorable all in your head i’ll go on and on till some day somebody says i’m dead i can’t hear a thing just ringing in the head sounds out breathing sounds out like from within my lungs they perspire out my nose i foam out my eyes i try not to cry been down on my face like this before when the gravel was more sharp more like needles in the cheek bone
the distant present tense
Press down hard on me
Press-down-hard
On my spineless backbone
Starched and hollow
Invest all you’ve got now dear cuz-
Im in too deep-I’m in too far now
Sinking weightless in depths-
where no one is longing
where no-one is ensuring
(There’s nothing to lose)
And its about this time now-around this time now-I go swirling in reverse-
Chasing the distant present tense
absolute / obsolete / absences
I found someone to love and I pressed against his torso-
He went down on the floor-I went with him
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